dissapointed

Relationship

i guess no ones visitting my blog liao...
didnt bother updating since last year..
well its good that actually no one comes here and read wat i write..
its been 1 year++ since me and my dear started our relationship.
i feel that her love for me is started to fade..
she nvr even hold the palm of my hand because her reasons for it was sweaty..
she nvr cares about me anymore..
if i nvr tell her wat happen to me she dun even bother asking...
even my birthday..she didnt even wish me happy birthday?
i tried very hard to spill all my love to her...
but wat always get is not the reaction i want..
example i even gave her a suprise birthday cake at 12am and sing her birthday song..
after blowing the cake she didnt even bother to come down and cut the cake with me..
still hands sticking with the keyboard chatting with her frens in the online game...

haihx..
she even has a husband in the game which calls her dear and "lou po"
she dun even let me call her lou po because she say its too old for her...
and yet when her online husband still calling her lou po?
they have each other account id and password...
and when i ask wat her password is?
she ask me "y u wan to know for?"
i said for fun...yeah i meant it for fun
its not like i'm going to login her id?
she jus say she not going to give me her id and pw in an angry tone...
i've been her bf for 1 year+..
poured my endless time with her...
and yet what i get in return?
she dun even trust me to let me know the id and pw?and yet trust her online husband?
yeah i know she says that is jus a game...
and when i tell her we can switch to another english server and play together...
she tells me that she got her own group of "friends" edi...

wat i've done wrong?
she speaks to me on the phone more rude than speaking to the stranger
everytime its like that its not jus 1 time...
i still speak to her with a soft and gentle voice but what i get in return?
my girlfren speaking to me like i'm a stranger?
even a stranger she also speak in a better tune..
she always say she is those "special" kind of person who dunno how to care ppl...
is that her reason?i believe if u love a person at least u care his/her feelings rite?
i've done everything wat a bf needs to do a gf..
even more so my family also takes care of her..
my father even gave her RM100 for her birthday..
she dunno how to appreciate ppl done for her and jus take things for granted...

because of this there is several times we nearly break up..
but its me at the end that i changed my mind...
how long i can stand this anymore?
i dunno...time will tell

Sticky

Sticky?does dat mean anything to u?sticky comes from the root word stick..means dat 2 or more person is 2gether smth like dat ...during my younger days i use to stick a lot with my grandma till i am like around 3...i still can remember when i woke up 1 day i kenot find my grandma bside me...i cried..i will b alwiz looking for my grandma wherever she goes until my family moved to kl coz my father working there and my mum is kl person =)...so after we moved there..i stick with my family...from 4 till around 14 i will b alwiz with them...whenever my father came back late from work i will ask my mum to call him to ask whether wat time he is coming back...ppl do grow..ppl hav different pages in life..at 15 i begin to hang out more often with my fren..till now..dear if u read this i hope i will stick with u till my life ends...till i blow my last breath.my love for u will never fade..even the pacific ocean is not big enuff to describe my love for u..now the only thing i wan to do to u is to stick to u everyday,everyminit or every second if can ><...time with u pass by so fast sob...thx for the present u gib me yesterday i so happy ><><...u r the one that i will giv up my life to ><..although we started around 1 month but it is like i known u for a very long time ...i love u
When u asked y i love u,
i ask y too,
there is no reason for me to love u,
coz i love u in everyway,

Jus wat i needed to hear,
your love releasing my strife,
wanting u here,
loving u always ryu,

well my finals is around the corner =(...guess i couldnt stick 2 much to u this few weeks...i hope u understand me ><..need to study..but when i got time i sure come to stick with u like super glue...heh..and to everybody wish me luck in finals..=P...o yea i will update my blog daily from now..as a tribute countdown to my sem 2 UTS finals preparation =P...

updated~

someone ask me update de...so i update it XD

Happy Kissing Day?

hohoho blog oh blog long time no c lo...lazy lazy szehowe ><...got free time dun1 to write u something muahaha..a lot things had happen ever since my last post...well my grandpa jus passed away recently, may god bless him in his future life...yea i jus finish my mid term sem 2 my next target is my finals in 9 weeks time...wat else to talk about?oh yea i am going to start my japanese class this saturday =)...thx to ryu i would able to learn another new language..it was quite expensive RM305 for 3 months course...haihx nowadays kl cost of living getting higher and higher ler...oil price soaring high...well today i woke at 630am and suprisingly i reach college b4 7am @@"traffic dam smooth suprisingly ...i think ppl stil taking off from mooncake festival ler...then when i reached college i saw this 2 couple french kissing in car lolx...nvm then when i walk up another couple kissing!then after i had my breakfast and waiting for lift another couple kissing bside the lift - -"...then hor i finish class liou go to library saw pppl kissing again!...lolx today is happy kissing day or wat ?so many ppl kissing de...huhuhu kerlian me nobody to kiss...nvr kiss a gal b4 dunno how it feels like = ="..haha i am very sure i will experienced it 1 day very curious ar XD...

Dun Sleep and Drive!

assignments,assignments and assignments?y my college alwiz hav assignment de =.="...compare to my other fren from other college my workload is definately more than them...1 role play and presentation every week is edi a lot for my other frens in other college...wtf?they even complain when they get assignment to write like 1000 words and the teacher gave them like 1 month deadline...come on get a life la..in taylors 1000 words means 1 week!u hav to finish into 1week!...and every 3 tutorial i attend for every subject i hav to do a mini assignment and recap wat i learned in past few tutorials...and guess wat accounting is driving me mad now...is not hard but is the amount of tutorial work the lecturer asked us to do...u guyz know i dam good in accounting 1 rite?i took like 3 hours 30 minit to finish my homework on tuesday night..haihx wat to do i am the class rap for the accounting class hav to show good example...with all these assignment+presentation+role play we still hav a lot of homework to do....once i reach home my daily activity is to open my microsoft word and start finishing my assignment/presentation...every day oso like dat...so bored..lucky i hav mirc and msn to chat while doing my work if not i will sien until i die...jus spend my time on studying nia...y my other frens in other colleges like so 'senang' i am like so busy...even i wan sleep early oso cant coz reali dam busy...for example yesterday i am suppose to do my business information anaylsis homework after i reached home but i somehow got hooked into pvp bcoz to try out paladin new sac damage..haihx after dat i hav 2 finish my homework till 2am some more got assignment notcet finish -_-"...reali miss those skool days where we can enjoy when the teacher is not in the class nvr do homework oso nvm nobody care..in college if nvr dom homework means no participation marks for u -_-"...even if u do projects in skool the teacher everytime giv u tips or giv u sample to copy from...in college there is no such thing as tips or sample...all for urself on ur group..no spoon feed like wat mr. kumar say...today role play was yet a very intresting 1...the discussion is like for 1 hhour 15 minit with lotsa question thrown to the role players..i did participate as well =)...overall is was yet another intresting law class....1 more thing didnt tell yesterday i sleep while i drive for like 5 seconds...haha guess 2 sleppy after 10 hours in college...from 7am-5pm..lolx...gtg now for lectures again till 3 =)...till then c ya!

World War 3 + Haze?

i feel like blogging coz something very intresting happen today..a person mood is so unpredictable =)...the haze is slowly but sure killing everyone in kl now...the area around my college is so blur dat i cant even see things that is 50 metres in front of me clearly...well those business minded ppl dam smart lo they r selling surgical mask around our college area RM1 per piece imagine a group of student buy from them look at their profit @@"...well the most intresting happen today during my role play presentation...i was well and fully prepared for the presentation having practice few times in my room the previous day visualling myself in front of the class talking =)...ok i hav to explain for those who dun understand wat role play is suppose to work like dat...we hav 3 ppl in a group...we r suppose to choose a person that we help in the question then prepare for it and hav to support it with relevant points..the topic i was doing is sole trader both my fren was doing partnership and public company..so we hav to argue with each other giving our own opinion..something like debate...but we have a panel of jury which consist 3 neutral ppl that didnt present for dat day and others were observers..it works like a court room shud i say but the difference is the jury makes the decision who is going wo win the kes..and the observers has the power to question the role players and the jury....well it started quite well for me i presented my points and my opinion quite confidently....both of my counterparts oso came to the presentation well prepared...i can c they hav at least practice the role playing few times like me...i esspcially receive lots a tough question from the observers and jury...some was totally crab...some i hav tot hink over my toes for the answer @@"...well i think i did fairly well in the question and answer session...then comes to time when the jury decides the winner of the role play..they awarded the win to my fren which is doing the public company i myself thin i did better than him and my the other fren who is doing partnership business oso did better than him..i personally think he is the worse among we 3 and the jury awarded the win to him wtf?then the drama begin...those observers beginning to question the jury asking y they choose him instead of me and my the other fre...well the answer that they giv were quite blur...and more obervers start throwing questions to them and these has been going on for like 15minits...between the observers and the jury...OMG?guess wat happen 1 of the jury which is a gal started crying bcoz the situation bcame so heated and tense...then our lecturer finally step in and interrupt our whole role play -_-"...he say we hav done very well the whole class participated in this presentation and he awarded 1 bonus mark to everyone of us in the class...lolx..altough i feel sori for the gal who cried...guess she can take the situation anymore eh?but at last she oso got smile back =)..another happy ending to my class =)..next week there is another group presenting looking forward to next week class XD